Finally, in you,
I have found all of my anger
from a lifetime of abuse
and intimidation,
you have given it a face and a name.
I have nurtured the spark carefully
and fanned the flame.
I have protected it from
the cold winds of my fear
and the quiet rain of my tears
and so it grew strong.
The more you try to oppress me
the stronger you make me,
You are teaching me
and I am a willing pupil.
I learn from every raging storm
you hurl at me.
I am not afraid of you
and I will fight you
till you run from me knowing
how small and helpless
you really are behind
the bully’s mask.
Never again
will I let anyone treat me
with anything less than dignity
and respect.
The Dark Fairy Journals 
You have an absolutely amazing gift. This really spoke to me, and I can feel the pain through it. I’m definitely sharing this one!
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Thank you very much, it means a lot to me that others can connect with my writing and that it expresses something they feel too.
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This is an absolutely breathtaking account of the pain felt as one who has endured childhood abuse. It is powerful and inspiring, and I encourage you to check out more at https://thedarkfairyjournals.wordpress.com/
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Thank you. Anger is quite scary, I hope that maybe my poem helps someone else to fan the flame and begin to know their own power.
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It most definitely has! I have gotten good feedback so far. Also, I was wondering if you could check out my latest post. I am hoping to write a book one day that exposes what went through my head as a rape victim and during the healing process, and I was hoping for some critical feedback. I just want to know if it’s something anyone could relate to or find themselves in. There may be triggers, so I do want you to be aware!
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Yes! This so beautiful, turning anger into a strength instead letting it tear you up. Bravo, my prayers are with you! 🙏 Barney
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Thank you very much for your comment. sometimes life throws terrible situations at us but we find that we are stronger than we think.
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Yup, I let it keep down for far too long but I am done with that and want my life back! 😬
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This is very moving and powerful!
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Thank you, I am learning not to be afraid of my anger ❤
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That is a big step, because it can be very frightening!
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I have been afraid of it for so long but I finally found something worth fighting for and my anger became more powerful than my fear.
It is so hard to learn to stand up for yourself as an adult after years of abuse as I’m sure you understand.
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Yes, I do… painfully so! Sometimes it feels like it will be a lifelong struggle. We need safe places to practice.
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I started out just trying to tell my therapist when she did or said something I wasn’t comfortable with. When she didn’t reject me and actually encouraged me was a sort of turning point, that maybe I can stand up for myself. Do you have that kind of support with your therapist?
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I do, and I feel very safe with her. I could probably practice with her. That is a good idea. It is too dangerous and frustrating to not be able to stand up for yourself. It keeps us away from people and alone. This must be empowering for you!
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Yes, it has given me the confidence to take little steps towards being with other people. It makes a big difference feeling that I can stand up for myself a bit, that I don’t have to allow people to hurt me.
As I now have a good therapist I have felt it important to tackle those niggly little things that feel wrong because if left they can gradually erode the trust that is so hard to build in the first place.
It’s all a learning process 🙂
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Yes it is definitely a learning experience!
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