The connection between us
feels as fragile
as a spider’s web,
fine spun silk
that will break
under the weight
of falling autumn leaves
or drifts of winter snow
leaving me alone in the cold.
Should I stay
with this fearful uncertainty
or should I tip-toe away
feel the stretch and break
of the thread
and of my hopes?
Maybe my hopes were
always too frail
to survive
like snowflakes
that melt away
in morning sun.
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I feel every word! I live this anxiety and fear in every relationship. Too many times it has been so painful, that I have tip toed away into aloneness. And only to find a different pain resides. It is so terribly hard to stay when you are so fragile! This was so vivid and real. You are such a beautiful writer!
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Thank you so much for your comment. I always used to tip toe away and can relate to how that feels. I am trying to stay and work things through but I am so full of doubts, how do I know if I am doing the right thing? People are so complicated!
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I am very deep into these same doubts, so I do understand. You make me not feel so alone in these self doubts. I am trying to stay too. But it is very hard.
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I think that with anything that feels overwhelming the trick is to tackle it one tiny step at a time, so maybe we don’t have to decide about the whole relationship. Maybe we can just tackle each little doubt as it comes along and see where that takes us.
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That is true. Sometimes it is very hard not to feel too broken to trust.
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